I. i am a ____
II. i love doing things just cause i like to
III. blablablablab

i'm taking back my love...
i've given you too much...
i'm unappreciated....
i hate myself for loveing u too much
yes that's rite that's the truth
i've been giving u fake smiles
i cnt put up a fake smile animore

like she said thanks for letting me go
now let me go
i'm not gng to love anione who doesn't appreciate it animore or did u ever...

i'm taking back my love..

life's a bitch

i need to settle with some low life ones...

i'm a bitch

n i still struggle with it

haiz......

let js see how far i'm fucking pushed.....

mybe i shld js be as cold'

mybe i shld js be how i was few mnths ago

mybe js mybe i'll feel better soonnnnnnnnn

mybe i shld js take this to forget it...

yes i shld

yes i shld

yes i shld

i'm js too nice .......

school's starting as soon as next week...
i'm always at a position the last week of hols....
stuck wit loads todo
haiz.....

stress....
perhaps i dun have to reli stretch it too thin...
i could do it during weekends ...
hmmmm..

hols were great but well
there were some hiccups i cn sae...
ok mybe its time i kept a diary...
i dunnoo

todos

thanks for updatg ur blog abg...tot it wudn't be till i reach bali at nite wud i be able to read of anytin to noe wads happennin with u...

i'm all dressed up here as im done with my packg..
my siblings are putting things their luggages last min....
glad to hear that u're gng to pick me from the airport!!!! cnt wait for tt...my body still ache from the massages ...hehe

my hair's still ok despite one night's sleep...
good thing i didn't tie it up like my sister did...
else i'll have bad hair...
well gtg to breakfast....
i'll pdate more...
have fun at the soccer my love...
hehe
yea i had to puff a bit ytr..
i was js gttg too irritable and exhausted....
ok
muakcs!

i'm overseas again...it sucks to be away from him....wished i didn't fight last nite wit him..swit thing was more concerned i was to suffer from withdrawal symptoms....
had my hair done all at aunty Lia's salon...
she suggested
that we kids go check out the club below ....but i js kept quiet...a promise is a promise....with or without my love knowing , i didn't wana go and never went to it...tmr as of ard 10 in the mornin aft breakfast all i'll be gng over to bali....niwaez hope you're dng ok...i feel extremely bad the mornin aft the fight we had mydarl ..

i js wanted to see if u were willing as i was to do wad woulld make the other much at ease..
i felt selfish but then agn i do feel overprotective when i'm js not ard u....hope u're ok now....i reli miss u..haiz....hope u never skip a meal js as promised....i reckon this quiting is making me irritatable too......my siblings are wondering y .....they overlooked that i guess....tempting to fall back but i'm gng try hard and stay clear this wk...will then tell me if i'm capable to .....its so swit and unexpected wen u were woried bt me baby...haiz

haiz seriously i miss u .... if u say u cnt distract urself 247.....then its not all fun 247 either.....haiz.....i love u...

haiz..
the days to the 19th pass by ever so slowly
making every second excruciatingly painful to bear
i wonder about the surprise you're planning to ambush on me upon my arrival
hehe
gosh
but no
i said to myself
you know your weakness and i don't want my surprise spoiled
hhe...so i will not probe..
not a chance

haiz
i try and try not to kol u as ofthen
but even so now with my sis and her friend sleepin over...
i find meself alone
wit my folks together have each other as company
whereas mine are this laptop and this tv

aniwaez
though i cannot wait to meet you darl and celerbrate our special occasions together
our way
i try to make full use of my time here
spending quality time wit my folks
whether they notice it or not..

any husss
been tempted to pack a bit
but didn't wanna shoow too much of enthusiasm gng hm
or else they'll suspect...
niwaez told my mum i'lll be havg dinner wit my darl upon my return
feeling tired now aft the workout
i did aft shopping..
well
tts all for now...
much love....

i was emailing my galpal ..
updating a lil bit on my life now
i just actually came back from kl trip
it was js a short trip to buy for me mum bags and all

apparrently penang has lil variety on branded stuff...
was soooooooooo tempted to buy for meself
but what to do
we cud barely fit our stuff in the boot wit js some tie and extra shoes my dad bought us
so yea

it was my first time to stay in concorde hotel in kl
yup pple
the hardrock cafe is open now
no longer under renovation for those who were hoping to take a peep
or buy the clothes or experience

anyhoosz
it was hip and happening
we reached quite late so
went up put our luggages and freshened up...
my dad wudn't let us in any of the cafes be it not the hardrock cafe
lol
obviously the hardrock cafe out of limits for families
its a bar for godsake
which btw my dad and his fren saw bt 2 menteri walking into it
js in tt hr of sittng
and th cafe beside it in which my dad n a fren of his waitd for us
sultan of selangor was there behind
so bc us gurls
me n my sis was there
haha
he walked out to talk to us
and see to it that thedy would lay eyes on us
u noe how it is
these guys wit such money in abundance and power
they'll use it
such as us gurls are theirs

anyhoos
we headed to melting pot there and have heavy supper
lol
excelent futtcini arrabiata...if tts how u spell it
lol
tho i regret to sae throughout my stay there i didn't make it for breakfast
haha
the nite after tho my siblings and i
we sneaked out behind the hotel and had some roti chanai for me bro and tea-o for me
milo
gt the picture?
hehe
duh smoke....
that aft tho some weird catch up wit me old frens
and then the last day
my bro showered first and bought us breafast
then headed for shopping one last time
make me mum reli hapi
not gona go into tt tho..
as i have mention
i dun brag bt me money
n dun understand those hu do cept they lack it
haha
piti them huh
niwaez
my mum out now...
tink have to cook now
and then start on me storybook...
ouh yea
tt nite en we sneaked out....
went over to the lounge
haha
happenin
nad this dumb drunk fat dude stuck wit the dancers
hahs
who seemed to wear
we.ll
close to nutin reli
but haiz
old fags partyg....haha
ok
gtg cook now.....hungry soon
bubye
missin u baby
see u online tonite.!!!